Today may be the last day i hand express breast milk already. I thought of doing it till the 12th to make it a full 16 months but today only very little supply so i think most likely by tomorrow i wont have much left. But still i am happy that i managed to breast feed for 16 months. This is something i am very proud about.
Ryann is still coughing. Last night he started having disturbed sleep again from 11 pm onwards all the way till morning. I really knocked out already by the early morning hours and i was almost late for work.
And i was really angry with hubby as he took Ryann's antibiotics (which was suppose to be kept in the fridge) to mum's place and he left it in Ryann's bag. Now Ryann cant take the antibiotics already. I am so angry with him as the antibiotics was never brought to mum's place at all thus i do not understand why did he do that. Every time when Ryann is not well, he doesn't bother to understand what is wrong and how does the medicine works. He doesn't even know what are the things we should avoid. Why cant he as the father take a bit of responsibility in parenting as well? I really do not understand.
Thursday, 8 January 2009
Wednesday, 7 January 2009
7th Jan Neb again
Yesterday night was terror for me. Ryann couldn't sleep as he was really coughing away and trying to catch his breath. I was so worried that he might get an attack of asthma and i really dunno what to do. Hardly slept at all last night.
This morning immediately went to see Dr Tan and gave Neb to Ryann. Next week need to go back and check again. Poor Ryann. He struggled so hard to break free during the neb. He is really angry but i have no choice.
Hopefully Ryann would be able to get well by Sunday so that he can start his term at GUG.
I am really tired now, need to go.. more updates tomorrow.
P/s:
Ryann weight at 10.8kg (Lost weight again) and standing at 81cm tall.
This morning immediately went to see Dr Tan and gave Neb to Ryann. Next week need to go back and check again. Poor Ryann. He struggled so hard to break free during the neb. He is really angry but i have no choice.
Hopefully Ryann would be able to get well by Sunday so that he can start his term at GUG.
I am really tired now, need to go.. more updates tomorrow.
P/s:
Ryann weight at 10.8kg (Lost weight again) and standing at 81cm tall.
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
6th Jan Scary Syringe
Every day we will feed Ryann his vitamin C and his lung supplement using the syringe. Initially, Ryann is not afraid of the syringe. Every time we put the syringe in his mouth, he will open his mouth wide and drink the content from the syringe willingly. However, after suffering from croup, feeding him medicine or supplements is a chore.
Ryann will start to whine and make noise at the sight of the syringe. He knows that it is medicine time. Often we will have to force feed him. He will struggle and scream at his top of his voice showing his anger to us.
Now, he is not receptive to any new food at all. When i tried to feed him Gerbers prune using his usual spoon today, he tighten his lips and reject even before tasting it. He must have thought it could be some medicine. He used to be able to finish 1 bottle of prune. Now, he doesn't even want to eat them.
Hopefully his diet will be back to normal soon. He lost a bit of weight. Weighing at 10.8kg.
When he is feeling tired but he couldn't get to sleep because he is coughing, he will start to cry and come to hug me asking for comfort. Feel so bad that mummy cant do anything to relieve his cough. God, please heal Ryann and make this coughing croup over soon.
Ryann will start to whine and make noise at the sight of the syringe. He knows that it is medicine time. Often we will have to force feed him. He will struggle and scream at his top of his voice showing his anger to us.
Now, he is not receptive to any new food at all. When i tried to feed him Gerbers prune using his usual spoon today, he tighten his lips and reject even before tasting it. He must have thought it could be some medicine. He used to be able to finish 1 bottle of prune. Now, he doesn't even want to eat them.
Hopefully his diet will be back to normal soon. He lost a bit of weight. Weighing at 10.8kg.
When he is feeling tired but he couldn't get to sleep because he is coughing, he will start to cry and come to hug me asking for comfort. Feel so bad that mummy cant do anything to relieve his cough. God, please heal Ryann and make this coughing croup over soon.
Monday, 5 January 2009
5th Jan Croup
Haven got time to do much updates as Ryann wasnt feeling very well for the past few days. Went to Doc Tan this morning after 3 days of persistant fever up to 39 degrees which refuse to go down after brufen and paracetamol. On Sunday, sis called me and told me that she found lots of red spots in Rhys's mouth and suspect hfmd. One of his classmates in his CC got hfmd too.
My heart sank when i heard that. When Ryann's fever didnt go down, I was so worried and i kept praying and praying to God that he will heal Ryann. Ryann couldn't sleep at night as he was coughing and the fever was making him real uncomfortable. Every time he cough he will start to cry. Poor boy. It is so painful to see him like that.
After seeing Dr. Tan, she diagnosed Ryann to have got Croup. I seriously have no idea what it is thus i am sharing this information here after doing some research.
Croup is a swelling of the voice box (larynx) and windpipe (trachea). Croup can be caused by allergies, bacteria, or inhaled irritants, but usually it's the result of a virus.
My heart sank when i heard that. When Ryann's fever didnt go down, I was so worried and i kept praying and praying to God that he will heal Ryann. Ryann couldn't sleep at night as he was coughing and the fever was making him real uncomfortable. Every time he cough he will start to cry. Poor boy. It is so painful to see him like that.
After seeing Dr. Tan, she diagnosed Ryann to have got Croup. I seriously have no idea what it is thus i am sharing this information here after doing some research.
Croup is a swelling of the voice box (larynx) and windpipe (trachea). Croup can be caused by allergies, bacteria, or inhaled irritants, but usually it's the result of a virus.
Most children with viral croup are between the ages of 3 months and 5 years old. The illness shows up most frequently between the months of October and March. Most cases of croup today are not serious, but a severe case can require hospitalization.
Croup is characterized by a loud cough that may sound like the barking of a seal and may be accompanied by fast or difficult breathing and sometimes a grunting noise or wheezing while breathing.
At first, a child may have cold symptoms like a stuffy or runny nose for a few days and may also have fever. As the upper airway (the lining of the windpipe and the voice box) becomes progressively inflamed and swollen, the child may become hoarse, with a harsh, barking cough.
Dr. Tan gave him medication that contains steroid which helps to reduce the swelling of the windpipe and vocal cords, and thus relieves the breathing difficulties
Dr Tan mentioned that croup conditions might move downwards to the lungs if left untreated. This might lead to bronchitis. I really hope Ryann will recover soon.
I hope it is just pure coincidence that Ryann fell sick the moment i stop breast feeding. This thought certainly hurt me alot. It gave me lots of guilt. I may not be able to supply enough breast milk for Ryann but i am definitely giving lots of tender loving care to Ryann.
Please pray for Ryann's speedy recovery.
p/s: Thank God, Dr Tan checked on Rhys. it is not hfmd. Phew....
Thursday, 1 January 2009
1st Jan 2009 Welcome 2009
Today is the first day of a new year. It actually marks a new start for everyone.
We should all try to make this year a better one compared to the previous year.
Ryann started his new year with some sneezy spells. Guess he might have caught the bug from hubby cos hubby was not well too. What a way to start the year. Went to mum's place as hubby went to work today.
Ryann pooed today. Usually he will poo every 2-3 days, which is of cos not very healthy. I brought the gerber prune and Ryann loved it cold. He ate a bottle that day but it didnt make him poo. I stocked up a few more bottles. Hopefully it will work for him the next time.
Ryann is not talking very much yet but his first word and his favourite word now is 'mum mum'.
While watching Elmo's world, He started saying 'mum mum' when Elmo was holding on to a banana. And when we asked him where is banana, he will walk to the kitchen and just stand and look up at the bunch of bananas hanging on top. Whenever we are eating something, he will always come to us and start saying 'mum mum' non stop. This little one sure feels hungry.
I wonder when will he start calling ma ma instead of mum mum. I hope it will be very soon.
We should all try to make this year a better one compared to the previous year.
Ryann started his new year with some sneezy spells. Guess he might have caught the bug from hubby cos hubby was not well too. What a way to start the year. Went to mum's place as hubby went to work today.
Ryann pooed today. Usually he will poo every 2-3 days, which is of cos not very healthy. I brought the gerber prune and Ryann loved it cold. He ate a bottle that day but it didnt make him poo. I stocked up a few more bottles. Hopefully it will work for him the next time.
Ryann is not talking very much yet but his first word and his favourite word now is 'mum mum'.
While watching Elmo's world, He started saying 'mum mum' when Elmo was holding on to a banana. And when we asked him where is banana, he will walk to the kitchen and just stand and look up at the bunch of bananas hanging on top. Whenever we are eating something, he will always come to us and start saying 'mum mum' non stop. This little one sure feels hungry.
I wonder when will he start calling ma ma instead of mum mum. I hope it will be very soon.
Wednesday, 31 December 2008
31st Dec Goodbye 2008
It is the end of the year again. Once again its time for us to do some soul searching and reflections about what we have done (or not done) in the past year.
Breastfeeding:
Time really flies and wait for no man. I still remember what happen on the 31st December 2007. My sister's old breast pump failed on me as well. =p I wonder if it is coincident or it is just my fault some where. I had a big fight with hubby last year on this day. I was really frustrated that my pump is not working, it was coming 12midnight and i am feeling so engorged and the pain just make me blew my top. And when he didn't really express his concern to me, that triggered my automated bomb. I think he would never understand the pain and the difficulties i encountered during my breastfeeding days. (Even after so long now, he still don't understand)
1 year later, today, I am hand expressing my milk because my pump failed on me too but this time is different. I have decided to stop breast feeding. 16 months of exclusively expressing milk for Ryann is a journey i am very proud about. I was expecting myself to stop after 6 months.But i never regretted having breast fed Ryann even after so many times of suffering from mastitis with high fever, crack nipples and pain.
In 2009, i bid goodbye to mastitis, crack nipples and pain.
Work and Family:
2008 have been a trying year for me. Being a FTWM, coping with family and work is really not easy. With my new designation at work, it became even harder for me to handle both at the same time. Lucky hubby does house work for me.
As i was exclusively pumping milk for Ryann, during family days, we cannot afford to go out for too long as i need to go back to pump milk. Alot of our plans were affected because i need to go home to express milk. I know sometimes it can be such a spoilsport that we cant go to places hubby wanted to go because of this reason.
In 2008, we lost some love ones. I lost a friend, James. We lost our loved one, our granny.
In 2009, I want to plan outings for our family to many places which we couldn't go due to time constrain. Treasure my loved ones and love them like it is going to be the last day on earth.
Health
Due to breastfeeding, i lost quite a lot of weight after pregnancy but it seems that the weight will be coming back soon if i don't start going back to my full exercise routine. Used to exercise 4 times a week before pregnancy but now barely 2 times a week. Usually need to rush back home to fetch Ryann. Sometimes due to work, i hardly got time to even take my lunch break. Which of course is unhealthy. With an additional branch at thomson plaza under my care in 2009, i bet it is going to be worse. But i really must do something. Just by thinking of starting exercise doesn't get me anywhere near to my target.
In 2009, I will plan to exercise at least 2 times a week and slowly increase to 3 times. I will start teaching aerobics back again so that i get paid while exercising. Isn't that a great way to motivate me to lose some weight? =p
Ryann's development
From a tiny weeny little baby (Alright.. not very tiny i know, Ryann is a whooping 3.55kg baby.) to a toddler who like to walk or run on his own without holding our hands. From a little baby who will just quietly look into my eyes when i hug him in my arms to a toddler who refuse to stay still.
Ryann's milestone was also a wonderful journey for both of us. From how to bath him, how to change his diapers, how to tell what Ryann wants through his cries, how to intro him to solid food, how to wean him off his pacifier and many more which is too long to mention.
In 2008, Ryann fell sick for a couple of times, mostly due to his allergies thus it will always affect his nose and throat. Hopefully things will get better in 2009.
Breastfeeding:
Time really flies and wait for no man. I still remember what happen on the 31st December 2007. My sister's old breast pump failed on me as well. =p I wonder if it is coincident or it is just my fault some where. I had a big fight with hubby last year on this day. I was really frustrated that my pump is not working, it was coming 12midnight and i am feeling so engorged and the pain just make me blew my top. And when he didn't really express his concern to me, that triggered my automated bomb. I think he would never understand the pain and the difficulties i encountered during my breastfeeding days. (Even after so long now, he still don't understand)
1 year later, today, I am hand expressing my milk because my pump failed on me too but this time is different. I have decided to stop breast feeding. 16 months of exclusively expressing milk for Ryann is a journey i am very proud about. I was expecting myself to stop after 6 months.But i never regretted having breast fed Ryann even after so many times of suffering from mastitis with high fever, crack nipples and pain.
In 2009, i bid goodbye to mastitis, crack nipples and pain.
Work and Family:
2008 have been a trying year for me. Being a FTWM, coping with family and work is really not easy. With my new designation at work, it became even harder for me to handle both at the same time. Lucky hubby does house work for me.
As i was exclusively pumping milk for Ryann, during family days, we cannot afford to go out for too long as i need to go back to pump milk. Alot of our plans were affected because i need to go home to express milk. I know sometimes it can be such a spoilsport that we cant go to places hubby wanted to go because of this reason.
In 2008, we lost some love ones. I lost a friend, James. We lost our loved one, our granny.
In 2009, I want to plan outings for our family to many places which we couldn't go due to time constrain. Treasure my loved ones and love them like it is going to be the last day on earth.
Health
Due to breastfeeding, i lost quite a lot of weight after pregnancy but it seems that the weight will be coming back soon if i don't start going back to my full exercise routine. Used to exercise 4 times a week before pregnancy but now barely 2 times a week. Usually need to rush back home to fetch Ryann. Sometimes due to work, i hardly got time to even take my lunch break. Which of course is unhealthy. With an additional branch at thomson plaza under my care in 2009, i bet it is going to be worse. But i really must do something. Just by thinking of starting exercise doesn't get me anywhere near to my target.
In 2009, I will plan to exercise at least 2 times a week and slowly increase to 3 times. I will start teaching aerobics back again so that i get paid while exercising. Isn't that a great way to motivate me to lose some weight? =p
Ryann's development
From a tiny weeny little baby (Alright.. not very tiny i know, Ryann is a whooping 3.55kg baby.) to a toddler who like to walk or run on his own without holding our hands. From a little baby who will just quietly look into my eyes when i hug him in my arms to a toddler who refuse to stay still.
Ryann's milestone was also a wonderful journey for both of us. From how to bath him, how to change his diapers, how to tell what Ryann wants through his cries, how to intro him to solid food, how to wean him off his pacifier and many more which is too long to mention.
In 2008, Ryann fell sick for a couple of times, mostly due to his allergies thus it will always affect his nose and throat. Hopefully things will get better in 2009.
This photo was taken in dec 2007.
And this in Dec 2008. Great difference isn't it?
Naughty Ryann trying to bite daddy's hand because his gums are real itch.
I haven really done much over these 15 months and thus in 2009, I am hoping to be able to teach more things to Ryann, read, sing and expose him to as many things as possible. Hopefully this will help with his speech.
2008 is over and time to welcome 2009.
Happy New Year!
Monday, 29 December 2008
29th Dec Fingers trembling away
As i am typing now, my fingers were trembling away. And the main reason why my fingers are trembling away is because i hand express my milk just now. Yes you guess it right, my stupid pump failed on me again.
I think it is me. I don't know why this is the 2nd time my pump failed on me. Some people have been pumping for so long yet nothing happen to their pump. Maybe because i am pumping exclusively that is why the pump wear out faster. But i thought that shouldn't be the way. Haiz... maybe i am just plain unlucky or just plain jinx. Bad luck has fallen upon me and it always happen during year end i realized.
I guess i can only accept the fate and use this few days to cut the supply to zero since i dun have my pump anymore. Hand expressing is so tedious. I don't understand how Josephine can hand express 800ml every time. My breast is hurting with bruises and my fingers are feeling the cramp. And the amount i hand express cant even get 1 feed now. =(
Some updates about Ryann.
This morning Hubby was trying to find the remote control of our SCV and only to realize that it is missing from the living room. We last used it at night yesterday after Ryann had fallen asleep.
Searched high and low for it only to find it on Ryann's bed. This means Ryann woke up in the middle of the night, walked out of the room to the living room, grab the remote control and surprisingly manage to walk back to his own bed to sleep and all these done in the dark. Time to close the doors at night already.
Today, Sis was feeding Rhys bread at mum's place and when Ryann saw that, he quickly ran to sis and said 'mum mum mum mum mum mum'. Sis told him to call 'Yi Yi' then she will give him the bread but he started dancing for her instead since he didn't know how to call yi yi yet. So cute.
Nowadays really hard time getting Ryann to sleep. Need to war with him every night. Phew... Time for some rest.... and get ready for tomorrow.
I think it is me. I don't know why this is the 2nd time my pump failed on me. Some people have been pumping for so long yet nothing happen to their pump. Maybe because i am pumping exclusively that is why the pump wear out faster. But i thought that shouldn't be the way. Haiz... maybe i am just plain unlucky or just plain jinx. Bad luck has fallen upon me and it always happen during year end i realized.
I guess i can only accept the fate and use this few days to cut the supply to zero since i dun have my pump anymore. Hand expressing is so tedious. I don't understand how Josephine can hand express 800ml every time. My breast is hurting with bruises and my fingers are feeling the cramp. And the amount i hand express cant even get 1 feed now. =(
Some updates about Ryann.
This morning Hubby was trying to find the remote control of our SCV and only to realize that it is missing from the living room. We last used it at night yesterday after Ryann had fallen asleep.
Searched high and low for it only to find it on Ryann's bed. This means Ryann woke up in the middle of the night, walked out of the room to the living room, grab the remote control and surprisingly manage to walk back to his own bed to sleep and all these done in the dark. Time to close the doors at night already.
Today, Sis was feeding Rhys bread at mum's place and when Ryann saw that, he quickly ran to sis and said 'mum mum mum mum mum mum'. Sis told him to call 'Yi Yi' then she will give him the bread but he started dancing for her instead since he didn't know how to call yi yi yet. So cute.
Nowadays really hard time getting Ryann to sleep. Need to war with him every night. Phew... Time for some rest.... and get ready for tomorrow.
Saturday, 27 December 2008
27th Dec Make a guess!
Lets play guessing game! Make a guess, what causes these marks?
Clearer view? Any idea?Not rashes for sure....
Not mosquito bites too....
Nope, i didnt meet up with a vampire... =p
Answer is.............
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Ryann bite me!!!!!!
All because he is teething! He is a late bloomer, tooth fairy just visited him not long ago. 4 top ones grew at the same time. No wonder he gets all itch and started giving me 'love bites'. And you bet it was real painful. I guess from the red marks you can tell how much strength he used to bite me and i believe the marks are here to stay for a while. These pictures were taken 12 hours after the biting incident and the marks are still red. He tried that on mum and of course he get scolding and 'beating' from mum too which ended with cries and more cries.
Ryann have been real playful nowadays. But although he is not talking much yet, he uses his own way to communicate with us. Take for instance when he wants milk at mum's place. He will grab the cushion he always lay on and put it at the right place, get in to the right position and wait for his milk to be ready. And if we don't respond to it, he will start whining to get your attention. Sometimes he will hold your hands and drag you to the kitchen or the place he wants to go.
When he wants to go out, he will grab his shoes and give it to you so that you can wear it for him.
When he wants to bath, he will grab his towel and walk towards the shower room. Before you know it, he is already in the shower room waiting for you.
Whenever he wants to open a container or something, he will always try to achieve it himself first without help. If he cant manage himself, he will start to whine and pass the thing to you asking you to help him. Take for instance, just now he grabbed his TMX Elmo and started pressing the buttons. But there was no response because the batteries were flat already. He kept pressing but there was no response.Thus,he grabbed Elmo again and passed it to hubby. Hubby kept Elmo aside and walked towards the store room to grab some batteries. Ryann must be thinking that Hubby ignored his request and he started crying. When Elmo became alive again after the change of batteries, Ryann's eyes shine again.
I was looking at some of the pictures when he was still a baby only to realize that he had grew up so much. And yes, i am a proud mummy and I thank God for giving me Ryann. I thank God for giving me the wisdom and patience i need to handle Ryann and the endurance to breastfeed Ryann till now. As i bid 2008 goodbye, i am also bidding goodbye to my breastfeeding days. I suffered from mastitis for many times throughout this period of almost 16 months. In less then 1 month from the last visit (30 Nov 2008) to the doctors for mastitis, here i am suffering from the pain and fever again. Guess it is really time for me to bid goodbye to breastfeeding days. All the pain i suffered this almost 16 months is all worth it and i am really glad i hang on for so long.
Friday, 26 December 2008
25th Dec Naughty Ryann refuse to sleep
It is pretty hard to make Ryann sleep nowadays. Even in the day time, he is quite reluctant to sleep. Put him in the sarong, his eyes still wide open and when he saw his smelly pillow he went all excited. We usually dun give him his smelly pillow during nap time so when i refuse to give him, he started making noise and tried all ways just to irritate me and make me give in.
And yes, in the end i lost the war. Cos it was almost 12pm and he is still not sleeping. He cry, sai nai and kick to get his way. I am starting to sense the terror 2 prelude coming. Maybe i should not even give in at all hor. I am usually quite head strong with my stand but i dunno why i gave in.
At night was worse, he usually can sleep on his own in his own bed. But he refuse to sleep this time and kept siting up, standing up, walking out of the room go to his library grab Lu Lu in the dark. For N number of times, i have to grab him back to bed. And when i scolded him, he started crying to gain daddy's attention and act so poor thing so that daddy can let him sleep in sarong. Of cos i didnt allow him to sleep in sarong cos it might become a habit. End up he just row himself on his bed until he feel tired and fell asleep.
This little one is getting naughtier as days comes by. I pray that i would have the patience and wisdom to be able to handle him
And yes, in the end i lost the war. Cos it was almost 12pm and he is still not sleeping. He cry, sai nai and kick to get his way. I am starting to sense the terror 2 prelude coming. Maybe i should not even give in at all hor. I am usually quite head strong with my stand but i dunno why i gave in.
At night was worse, he usually can sleep on his own in his own bed. But he refuse to sleep this time and kept siting up, standing up, walking out of the room go to his library grab Lu Lu in the dark. For N number of times, i have to grab him back to bed. And when i scolded him, he started crying to gain daddy's attention and act so poor thing so that daddy can let him sleep in sarong. Of cos i didnt allow him to sleep in sarong cos it might become a habit. End up he just row himself on his bed until he feel tired and fell asleep.
This little one is getting naughtier as days comes by. I pray that i would have the patience and wisdom to be able to handle him
Thursday, 25 December 2008
24th Dec Christmas dinner at home
Been busy for the past few days teaching and training. 2009 is going to be a very challenging year for me and i will really have to plan very well in terms of time, expenses and work.
Today we had party with my staff in Bugis and we were practically eating all the way.
My in law family with the uncles and aunties came along as well for dinner at my home. Brought Grandpa along so that he wont be too bored at home.
We had great food from famous nasi briyani from tekka, 2 pizzas, home made salad, 2 roasted chicken with special stuffings, Sakae sushi which took us 3 hours to collect, Ham, bean curd tart and durian Log cake.
Ryann enjoyed himself playing with them. But he was staring at Luca (SIL's huge dog). Luca grew so much. He is now taller then Ryann already.
Cute little Ryann have been naughty as usual. He like to carry his Elmo bag which was obviously too big for him. He like to walk to the room, grab his towel and walk to the toilet himself just to tell you he want to bath. Not sure if i hear him right but i thought i heard him say "Jiak" (in teochew) when he want to eat. He is still not talking normally but in his own baby language. I hope to hear him call ma ma soon.
Today we had party with my staff in Bugis and we were practically eating all the way.
My in law family with the uncles and aunties came along as well for dinner at my home. Brought Grandpa along so that he wont be too bored at home.
We had great food from famous nasi briyani from tekka, 2 pizzas, home made salad, 2 roasted chicken with special stuffings, Sakae sushi which took us 3 hours to collect, Ham, bean curd tart and durian Log cake.
Ryann enjoyed himself playing with them. But he was staring at Luca (SIL's huge dog). Luca grew so much. He is now taller then Ryann already.
Cute little Ryann have been naughty as usual. He like to carry his Elmo bag which was obviously too big for him. He like to walk to the room, grab his towel and walk to the toilet himself just to tell you he want to bath. Not sure if i hear him right but i thought i heard him say "Jiak" (in teochew) when he want to eat. He is still not talking normally but in his own baby language. I hope to hear him call ma ma soon.
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