31st Dec Goodbye 2008

It is the end of the year again. Once again its time for us to do some soul searching and reflections about what we have done (or not done) in the past year.

Breastfeeding:

Time really flies and wait for no man. I still remember what happen on the 31st December 2007. My sister's old breast pump failed on me as well. =p I wonder if it is coincident or it is just my fault some where. I had a big fight with hubby last year on this day. I was really frustrated that my pump is not working, it was coming 12midnight and i am feeling so engorged and the pain just make me blew my top. And when he didn't really express his concern to me, that triggered my automated bomb. I think he would never understand the pain and the difficulties i encountered during my breastfeeding days. (Even after so long now, he still don't understand)

1 year later, today, I am hand expressing my milk because my pump failed on me too but this time is different. I have decided to stop breast feeding. 16 months of exclusively expressing milk for Ryann is a journey i am very proud about. I was expecting myself to stop after 6 months.But i never regretted having breast fed Ryann even after so many times of suffering from mastitis with high fever, crack nipples and pain.

In 2009, i bid goodbye to mastitis, crack nipples and pain.

Work and Family:

2008 have been a trying year for me. Being a FTWM, coping with family and work is really not easy. With my new designation at work, it became even harder for me to handle both at the same time. Lucky hubby does house work for me.

As i was exclusively pumping milk for Ryann, during family days, we cannot afford to go out for too long as i need to go back to pump milk. Alot of our plans were affected because i need to go home to express milk. I know sometimes it can be such a spoilsport that we cant go to places hubby wanted to go because of this reason.

In 2008, we lost some love ones. I lost a friend, James. We lost our loved one, our granny.

In 2009, I want to plan outings for our family to many places which we couldn't go due to time constrain. Treasure my loved ones and love them like it is going to be the last day on earth.

Health

Due to breastfeeding, i lost quite a lot of weight after pregnancy but it seems that the weight will be coming back soon if i don't start going back to my full exercise routine. Used to exercise 4 times a week before pregnancy but now barely 2 times a week. Usually need to rush back home to fetch Ryann. Sometimes due to work, i hardly got time to even take my lunch break. Which of course is unhealthy. With an additional branch at thomson plaza under my care in 2009, i bet it is going to be worse. But i really must do something. Just by thinking of starting exercise doesn't get me anywhere near to my target.

In 2009, I will plan to exercise at least 2 times a week and slowly increase to 3 times. I will start teaching aerobics back again so that i get paid while exercising. Isn't that a great way to motivate me to lose some weight? =p

Ryann's development

From a tiny weeny little baby (Alright.. not very tiny i know, Ryann is a whooping 3.55kg baby.) to a toddler who like to walk or run on his own without holding our hands. From a little baby who will just quietly look into my eyes when i hug him in my arms to a toddler who refuse to stay still.

Ryann's milestone was also a wonderful journey for both of us. From how to bath him, how to change his diapers, how to tell what Ryann wants through his cries, how to intro him to solid food, how to wean him off his pacifier and many more which is too long to mention.

In 2008, Ryann fell sick for a couple of times, mostly due to his allergies thus it will always affect his nose and throat. Hopefully things will get better in 2009.

This photo was taken in dec 2007.

And this in Dec 2008. Great difference isn't it?

Naughty Ryann trying to bite daddy's hand because his gums are real itch.

I haven really done much over these 15 months and thus in 2009, I am hoping to be able to teach more things to Ryann, read, sing and expose him to as many things as possible. Hopefully this will help with his speech.

2008 is over and time to welcome 2009.

Happy New Year!

29th Dec Fingers trembling away

As i am typing now, my fingers were trembling away. And the main reason why my fingers are trembling away is because i hand express my milk just now. Yes you guess it right, my stupid pump failed on me again.

I think it is me. I don't know why this is the 2nd time my pump failed on me. Some people have been pumping for so long yet nothing happen to their pump. Maybe because i am pumping exclusively that is why the pump wear out faster. But i thought that shouldn't be the way. Haiz... maybe i am just plain unlucky or just plain jinx. Bad luck has fallen upon me and it always happen during year end i realized.

I guess i can only accept the fate and use this few days to cut the supply to zero since i dun have my pump anymore. Hand expressing is so tedious. I don't understand how Josephine can hand express 800ml every time. My breast is hurting with bruises and my fingers are feeling the cramp. And the amount i hand express cant even get 1 feed now. =(

Some updates about Ryann.

This morning Hubby was trying to find the remote control of our SCV and only to realize that it is missing from the living room. We last used it at night yesterday after Ryann had fallen asleep.
Searched high and low for it only to find it on Ryann's bed. This means Ryann woke up in the middle of the night, walked out of the room to the living room, grab the remote control and surprisingly manage to walk back to his own bed to sleep and all these done in the dark. Time to close the doors at night already.

Today, Sis was feeding Rhys bread at mum's place and when Ryann saw that, he quickly ran to sis and said 'mum mum mum mum mum mum'. Sis told him to call 'Yi Yi' then she will give him the bread but he started dancing for her instead since he didn't know how to call yi yi yet. So cute.

Nowadays really hard time getting Ryann to sleep. Need to war with him every night. Phew... Time for some rest.... and get ready for tomorrow.

27th Dec Make a guess!

Lets play guessing game! Make a guess, what causes these marks?

Clearer view? Any idea?

Not rashes for sure....

Not mosquito bites too....

Nope, i didnt meet up with a vampire... =p

Answer is.............

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Ryann bite me!!!!!!

All because he is teething! He is a late bloomer, tooth fairy just visited him not long ago. 4 top ones grew at the same time. No wonder he gets all itch and started giving me 'love bites'. And you bet it was real painful. I guess from the red marks you can tell how much strength he used to bite me and i believe the marks are here to stay for a while. These pictures were taken 12 hours after the biting incident and the marks are still red. He tried that on mum and of course he get scolding and 'beating' from mum too which ended with cries and more cries.

Ryann have been real playful nowadays. But although he is not talking much yet, he uses his own way to communicate with us. Take for instance when he wants milk at mum's place. He will grab the cushion he always lay on and put it at the right place, get in to the right position and wait for his milk to be ready. And if we don't respond to it, he will start whining to get your attention. Sometimes he will hold your hands and drag you to the kitchen or the place he wants to go.
When he wants to go out, he will grab his shoes and give it to you so that you can wear it for him.
When he wants to bath, he will grab his towel and walk towards the shower room. Before you know it, he is already in the shower room waiting for you.

Whenever he wants to open a container or something, he will always try to achieve it himself first without help. If he cant manage himself, he will start to whine and pass the thing to you asking you to help him. Take for instance, just now he grabbed his TMX Elmo and started pressing the buttons. But there was no response because the batteries were flat already. He kept pressing but there was no response.Thus,he grabbed Elmo again and passed it to hubby. Hubby kept Elmo aside and walked towards the store room to grab some batteries. Ryann must be thinking that Hubby ignored his request and he started crying. When Elmo became alive again after the change of batteries, Ryann's eyes shine again.

I was looking at some of the pictures when he was still a baby only to realize that he had grew up so much. And yes, i am a proud mummy and I thank God for giving me Ryann. I thank God for giving me the wisdom and patience i need to handle Ryann and the endurance to breastfeed Ryann till now. As i bid 2008 goodbye, i am also bidding goodbye to my breastfeeding days. I suffered from mastitis for many times throughout this period of almost 16 months. In less then 1 month from the last visit (30 Nov 2008) to the doctors for mastitis, here i am suffering from the pain and fever again. Guess it is really time for me to bid goodbye to breastfeeding days. All the pain i suffered this almost 16 months is all worth it and i am really glad i hang on for so long.

25th Dec Naughty Ryann refuse to sleep

It is pretty hard to make Ryann sleep nowadays. Even in the day time, he is quite reluctant to sleep. Put him in the sarong, his eyes still wide open and when he saw his smelly pillow he went all excited. We usually dun give him his smelly pillow during nap time so when i refuse to give him, he started making noise and tried all ways just to irritate me and make me give in.
And yes, in the end i lost the war. Cos it was almost 12pm and he is still not sleeping. He cry, sai nai and kick to get his way. I am starting to sense the terror 2 prelude coming. Maybe i should not even give in at all hor. I am usually quite head strong with my stand but i dunno why i gave in.

At night was worse, he usually can sleep on his own in his own bed. But he refuse to sleep this time and kept siting up, standing up, walking out of the room go to his library grab Lu Lu in the dark. For N number of times, i have to grab him back to bed. And when i scolded him, he started crying to gain daddy's attention and act so poor thing so that daddy can let him sleep in sarong. Of cos i didnt allow him to sleep in sarong cos it might become a habit. End up he just row himself on his bed until he feel tired and fell asleep.

This little one is getting naughtier as days comes by. I pray that i would have the patience and wisdom to be able to handle him

24th Dec Christmas dinner at home

Been busy for the past few days teaching and training. 2009 is going to be a very challenging year for me and i will really have to plan very well in terms of time, expenses and work.

Today we had party with my staff in Bugis and we were practically eating all the way.

My in law family with the uncles and aunties came along as well for dinner at my home. Brought Grandpa along so that he wont be too bored at home.
We had great food from famous nasi briyani from tekka, 2 pizzas, home made salad, 2 roasted chicken with special stuffings, Sakae sushi which took us 3 hours to collect, Ham, bean curd tart and durian Log cake.

Ryann enjoyed himself playing with them. But he was staring at Luca (SIL's huge dog). Luca grew so much. He is now taller then Ryann already.

Cute little Ryann have been naughty as usual. He like to carry his Elmo bag which was obviously too big for him. He like to walk to the room, grab his towel and walk to the toilet himself just to tell you he want to bath. Not sure if i hear him right but i thought i heard him say "Jiak" (in teochew) when he want to eat. He is still not talking normally but in his own baby language. I hope to hear him call ma ma soon.

21st Dec Ryann's first school bag

I have recently just joined an online spree for a remote control car. It is a camo army car. Ryann loves it. This naughty boy will climb up the car play with the steering wheel and the horns then come down. This 'up and down the car' process kept repeating itself. And when hubby control the car to move, he is not scare at all. The funny thing is, Rhys was the one who got scare when the car moves. I would think both of them will start fighting with each other on who to play with the car like they always fight for toys.

SIL brought an Elmo bag for Ryann. Small little back pack but i doubt Ryann would want to carry that. Most likely is mummy going to carry it. Lucky she didnt buy Barney if not i sure headache. Must make myself carry the 'purple gay dino' out. =p

Brought Grand pa out to pray to granny and lunch at TPY swimming complex. Our all time favourite taiwan porridge relocated there from Oasis. After which we brought him for a walk in the park and saw this cute little turtle climbing the trees. Caught it on camera. What a sight.

20th Dec Signing up for GUG suntec 2pm sunday class

Finally we sign GUG for Ryann to try for 1 term. Was procrastinating for quite some time. Trio's classes was my first choice actually but their timing doesn't suit me at all.

Initially i was really tempted not to sign for both since Ryann is going to start playgroup in Mar next year. But since GUG's 1 term is from Jan - Feb. Why not send him there to try out first?

They gave a GUG bag in er.... not so nice colour =p And a list of how to teach Zoophonics.

Will share Zoo phonics details soon.

Going to buy a bag for Ryann to bring to school. Maybe an Elmo bag will be good. =p

19th Dec New bed sheet for Ryann

Went to fetch Ryann back from my mum's place. Usually i will ask him to wear his shoes and walk home. But today when i ask him where is his shoe shoe? He went over to his stroller, climb up and sit on the stroller waiting for us to belt him up. Smart boy, he know got stroller means no need walk home = no need shoe.

Since we are not going to celebrate CNY, might as well change the bedsheets to the new one we brought some time back.

Brand new baby blue Wall- E bedsheet for Ryann.

Funny thing is this boy doesnt recognise his bed anymore after the change and he didnt dare to go down from my bed at first. He sat on my bed and look at his unfamiliar bed color.
Finally he went down on one leg first, test the stability of the bed, then the other leg and started dancing on the spot. I think he is trying to test the bed.... BTH.

Ryann is always the 'medicine' to help me destress.

17th Dec Ryann's updates recently

some pictures over the 2 weeks....

Family pic with extended family from my mother side at my cousins wedding

Pics with Ryann and hubby
Qin mei zu ma cousins. We were always in pairs last time.

Gals power...

This is the face every time Ryann will make whenever we scold him. See his face like that so funny, i dun think i am angry anymore.

Cute litte Ryann.

Learning to hold a pen. He seems to use his left hand more often but both me and hubby are right handed....

Enjoying his rocking giraffe ride.

Just to share, Tooth fairy gave Ryann a christmas gift... His 2 front teeth. =p Finally i saw something white coming out from his front gums.

Ryann loves going out recently. When i say gai gai wear shoe shoe... he will take his shoes and pass them to me to wear for him. His little feet grew abit and thus we were looking for shoes for him. He will cry if we take his shoes off whenever we were just trying if the shoe fits him.

He was also caught playing with Hubby's psp. With his fingers at the right place still....

Ryann never fail to spice up my tired day.

16th Dec Finally every thing is over

A very tiring and long week we had. From daily visiting to woodlands to cousin's wedding to granny's funeral. Finally we had all things settled and i am going back to work tomorrow.

Just some short updates, will post pics later on.
Before granny pass away, I managed to attend 2 weddings. First was Ray and Clarisse. My colleagues from Amore fitness. They were both aerobics instructors and Clarisse took the Kickboxing instructor course together with me. We didn't expect both to be together and get married eventually but i guess Love is unpredictable.

My 'Qin mei zu ma' cousin finally got married with his girlfriend Valerie on the 9th of Dec too. We had a great time. At the same time, it was Uncle Lawrence's birthday. Will show some pics later.

Granny pass away in her sleep on Wednesday 10th Dec in the afternoon. I was still planning to visit her after work that day. The last time i visited her was on Friday. Sat and Sun i went for wedding dinner. Monday and Tuesday Ryann was having fever and thus I didn't visit her. I really regretted not doing so.

When i reached Woodlands. All i saw was her cold body. Her face no longer have the rosy and chubby cheeks. Her face all sunken in and she really don't look like her anymore. Tears filled our eyes. Everyone tried to act as normal as we could but still the pain just filled the house. Grandpa cried as well but he is a man of little words. We all know he must be feeling really sad. While waiting for the doctor to come, more uncles, aunties and cousins came along. All weep at the sight of granny. We know we should be happy that finally granny is not suffering anymore but still no words can describe the pain of losing someone so close.

The next few days was busy at the wake. As hubby is the eldest grandson, we will need to be involved in all the rituals performed together with my father in law. We were also really busy serving all those relatives and friends who came to pay respect at the wake. The wake was grand and filled with lots of relatives and friends. The altar was filled with flowers send by some friends and business associates.

On the last day of the wake. the band came and started playing some songs, we started to be teary already. All of us were weeping silently. It was raining a little but we still proceed to send granny the last journey out of the block. As we walk together along the streets, we just weep uncontrollably. We hold on to each other and just cry out loud. Grand pa was crying too but because chinese believe that husband or parents cannot be present during their wife or children's cremation, he was left behind with the maid at home.

Cremation process was really peaceful unlike before. All we had was a viewing room and an automated moving machine. Xiao Gu, Heng yi (Youngest Cousin) and Sister in law broke down.

We went to collect her ashes the next day and its all over just like that. We are only left with a box of ashes. We will never get to see granny again unless in our dreams. As I write now, tears filled my eyes. We will miss granny always. I miss the cute granny who was biting her drumstick and asking me why am i giving her a angbao (It was her 80th birthday just recently) I miss the granny who was playing with Ryann in the hospital. I miss granny who asked hubby if he had finish NS when hubby is already 30 years old. I miss granny when her eyes just brighten up at the sight of durians just like a child seeing ice creams or sweets.

In Loving Memory of Granny/Ryann's Great Grand Granny Nov 1927 - Dec 2008

More Ryann's update tomorrow. Need to rest already... Super tired week.

Will blog from next week onwards

A number of friends asked me how come i have not be blogging these few days. I usually blog almost everyday.

Have been travelling to and fro bugis, woodlands and punggol everyday to visit granny in law.

She passed away peacefully on wednesday. Thus i would not be able to blog till next week after all the issues at the wake are settled.

Wake will be at Block 839 Woodlands st 82. Will leave for Mandai on Sunday 2pm.

Thanks for all the concerns.Hubby and family are doing fine.

2th Dec Ryann's prevnar jab and our sad woodlands visit.

Brought Ryann to PD for Prevnar jab today. Ryann cried badly during the jab. It must be painful. Ryann is 10.8kg and 78 - 79cm tall (he was practically struggling to break free thus not sure if it is 78 or 79) I have checked with doc Tan over certain issues.

Ryann does not maintain eye contact regularly with us. Doc Tan said so far as she talks Ryann is looking at her so shouldn't be a problem. Ryann must at least responds to 3 main things such as bye bye, high 5 and clap hands which Ryann knows but he only does that when he is in mood.
Regarding MMR, she said that i can have a choice to delay it latest by 2 yrs old. Thus I am going to do just that.
As for his milestones, Doc Tan wants us to read through the health booklet and try to encourage and teach Ryann those items stated in the health booklet for 15 months to 18 months.
But she did mention that boys are usually slower then girls.

We made a trip down to Granny's house at Woodlands this evening. Almost all the relatives turn up today, Granny is very weak and may leave us anytime. She do not have the strength to talk or move anymore. She lost her ability to swallow too thus she is not allowed to drink or eat at all. High fever above 39 degrees constantly and never came down. Her whole face is red and her body is burning hot. She have to rely on the oxygen machine to assist her with the breathing. We couldn't do anything except to keep sponging her to try to bring the temperature down. From 7 plus to 11pm, I didn't stop sponging her but her temperature remained at 39 degrees.

The elders started asking for our Chinese name to be written down for the Obituary. Photo have been chosen. We started choosing her favourite clothes to be wore on her. We already cut the pockets of the pants. We have all materially prepared for the worse but frankly speaking, our hearts are not ready yet.

Pain still linger in our hearts. Tears still row in our eyes. 'Er Gu' couldn't take it but to cry out. Some weap silently. It is painful no doubt but to make it worse is when we know she is feeling terrible but we couldn't do anything about it. Of cos grand pa must be the person who feel the pain the most. They were married for more then 60 years. They were so loving to each other. On my ROM, grandpa was even wiping granny's sweat. They were the most loving old couple i have even seen. I dun even see that in my own family.

Although, I am only with this family for about 3.5 years. But I still feel for her just like my own granny. Her friendly smile and her occasional blur look is still clear in my mind but i no longer see them anymore.

As we tried to wipe her clean and change into one of her favourite top, we could feel the body heat. Her body is all swollen due to water retention and that causes her arms to feel like there are water bags in them. As we turn her over, we could literally feel the smell of the heat from his back. Her sores on her buttocks were bleeding. We changed her bandage and diapers. Wipe her clean and apply powder.

Sometimes, i really wonder if we are ready to face death or not. This long process of dying seems like never ending. Time passes so slowly. It is painful for her and also painful for her love ones. I always thought it would be better if she lessen her pain but going off smoothly and faster. But some one told me before. To us, we experience pain of losing 1 person in our life. But to her, she lost every one. All i hope is she will go with no misery and pain. And i hope grandpa will be able to take it well.

30th Nov Ryann fell down and got himself bruises on his cheeks

I was in the toilet when suddenly i heard Ryann's cries and my hubby's running footstep. I knew Ryann had fell from his cries. I run out from the toilet and saw Ryann's cheek with a red patch.From his cries, I think he fell quite hard this time Immediately, i can see the blue black bruise surface on his cheek. Hubby must have been watching tv and didn't realize Ryann had wandered into the room. Poor Ryann.

Poor Mummy too. Woke up with aches on my left anterior deltoids and was feverish. Went to see doctor and i was shivering really badly then. 38.5 degrees. Mastitis again. This is the 3rd time i got mastitis through out my breast feeding journey and i hate it. Body aches, feverish, shivers and drop in supply. Doc advice me to stop breast feeding. Since i am already planning to stop before CNY, should i just take this opportunity to stop then? Well, i really don't know if i should or not. I guess over the 14.5 months of breastfeeding, it became a routine in my life already. Thus i have mixed feelings over stopping breast feeding. Lets see how it goes since i have 2 more months to go before CNY.

Caught Ryann dancing while watching Elmo's world. Video downsized thus not so clear.

28th Nov Ryann knock his forehead but it made him smarter

Ryann like to walk under the dining table since young. Ever since he was on his walker, he like to go under the table.

As he grew taller, he cant walk under the dining table with out hitting his head.
He attempt to walk under the table but hit his fore head 2 times. But he became smarter after that, now he tuck in his chin to tilt his head down so that he can walk in without hitting his head. So gui ling jing.

27th nov Mummy is on TV

Today Boss wanted me to go to WDA certified service professional course (Service Quality centre) to do some visiting. I know media will be there to do filming but i didn't know they will be interviewing me. OMG. And it is a mandarin channel. My mandarin is not very fluent. I really panic lor. I was at a wedding dinner thus wasn't able to view the news but sms came in from my friends and relative that they saw me on TV. My legs really jelly. Phew.

http://video2.channelnewsasia.com/cnavideos/chineseplayer.asp?skin=Player1.swf&player=chineseplayer.swf&filename=xin_ch_thu14.flv

I hope i don't look fat.

Went for wedding dinner of a distant relative from my in law family. Only to realize the groom who is hubby's cousin is my school mate. During the Yam Seng session, Ryann started crying due to the loud sound. So poor thing. He only slept at 11.20pm lor. And for the first time, his diaper leaked and my skirt is all wet. Luckily it only happen on our way home.

Overall the wedding was really great. Food was not bad. The organizing of the wedding was so smooth. Make me think of my wedding's mess. Their animation was the one i wanted but couldn't get a slot as she was fully booked. Their love story was similar to ours.Their proposal was romantic. My hubby didn't even propose to me before. =( They had live pianist and 2 singers who had great voices. bubbles for march in. Wedding posters specially made. Overall wonderful. I miss those times when i do wedding co-ordination. Those were the days.

26th Nov Ryann loves clapping!

At mum's place, Ryann was playing with his stacking toys when i started teaching him colors using the stacking toy. He managed to stack all 5 together but he wasn't pretty sure about the colors. He manged to stack them due to memory i guess. After each successful try, we will clap his hands to praise him and he will join us clapping happily. The last try, by the time he finished with the 4th piece he already started clapping thinking he had finished.

Today I tried to introduce the Goldilocks and the 3 bears gigantic book. Initially, he sat down on my lap and listen attentively. Maybe because the story do not have lots of action and he was hungry for milk, he only manage to sat through for 70% of the book. That is still a good start. I continue reading the book even though he wasn't really listening.

Then I took out the color book. Few days ago, I was showing him the color 'Orange'. I pointed to him the orange truck, the orange carrot and the orange pumpkin. I repeated a few times and I started asking him which one is the orange truck? Instead of him pointing himself, he took my hand to point at the orange truck! This cheeky boy. Today when i tried to ask him which one is orange truck, he ignore me already.

Last i took out the numbers book. I have taught him 'balls' previously. Thus, I show the 'page' to him one more time, closed the book and i asked him to show me where are the balls. He manage to flip to the right page and started clapping. lolx. Reason being: Whenever he got the right answer, i will clap and encourage him for doing a good job. After doing a couple of times, I taught him umbrella. But he wasn't really interested in umbrella. He flipped to the page of 'cats' instead. After teaching him about cats, he manage to flip to the right page when asked. Same thing, he flipped to that page and started clapping. So cute.

I realized a few points.
1) We shouldn't force our baby to learn something when he show no interest at all.
2) Ryann must be praised for doing a good job or being a good boy this will encourage him to learn more.
3) Patience and repetitive exposure is important.

I hope i can have the patience and time to expose him with more things.

p/s: It is getting harder to make Ryann sleep. He will always walk out of the room to find us outside. Haiz..
Recently, Ryann cries during sleep. Think must be teething. His 2 front teeth are not out yet but the ones at the side came out first. Have to monitor this abnormal growth.

25th Nov Sesame Street Live Show

Today we brought Ryann to Marina Square to watch Sesame Street Live Show. Was so excited about it. I didn't know that there would be meet and greet session and we are so lucky to be the first 40 who will get to take photo with Elmo and pals.

Beginning of the show during the games session, Ryann wasn't paying much attention. Until Elmo came out, his eyes were stuck to the stage. I couldn't take any photo because irritating hubby didn't want to come in and sit with us. Thus i couldn't handle Ryann alone. =( But i manage to take some pics of Sesame Street characters thou.

At times, Ryann will be dancing to the music. He was clapping away though out the show. I am glad i brought him there.

During the Meet and Greet session, Ryann was so amazed that Elmo is just right beside him and he kept looking at him.

Happen to walk past this sesame street ride and Ryann was so happy on it. We didn't put coin of cos.

Today damage $100 plus. Must really control my spending, need to pay Ryann's school fees already.

Brought 3 ties and a tie clip for Hubby to encourage him to work hard in his new company. Yes! He finally can get out of that stupid company.

Brought 3 books (One of it is sesame street) and 2 Sesame Street- Memory cards and Floor puzzle.

I believe Ryann is also very happy till he couldn't sleep. 10.45 pm, hubby and I were watching CSI on TV at the living room and suddenly we saw Ryann walking towards us. He crawl out of his bed and walk towards us in the dark. I must remember to close the walk in wardrobe door to prevent his from going to the toilet.

24th Nov Ryann playing with mega blocks

Been awhile since i blog, it just show how little time i spent with Ryann recently.

Yesterday went to grand uncle's 70th birthday dinner. Ryann behaved himself except for throwing the FM container on to the floor and spill all the powder on the ground. There goes his milk. I didnt bring along EBM cos it is pretty troublesome. I didn't expect the dinner to end at 10.30pm. And Ryann was alert and awake till he had his milk at 11am and slept immediately after that. Recently, his bedtime is getting later. He is able to stay awake for a longer duration without fussy.

This video is taken when Ryann is playing with the mega block. He always like to put the mega block container and put over his head. So funny. He does that pretty often thou. So cute.

20th Nov Granny in hospital again

Today was suppose to be at HQ cos it is our monthly birthday celebration but i couldn't go cos I receive a call at 11am from Sis in law that grand ma cannot make it already.We quickly rush down to NUH. Waited for almost 2 hours and finally the A&E doctor came to talk to us. He said that there is water in her lungs. Her kidneys are not functioning thus it is causing a lot of stress in the heart. We need to make decision whether we want to save her all the way which will mean she needs to go for kidney dialysis. If not they will try their best to administer CPR but it will mean the heart will still fail again because the same problem will come back. Currently we need to see if she is responding well to the medicine to drain the water out. After which , they will monitor again. Her kidneys are left with 10% of its functionality. But dialysis is definitely out of the question as her heart is unable to take it as adviced by the doctor. It seems that we are left with no choice. These 2 days are the danger period. As long as she is peeing and passing motion well, she would most likely be able to survive. Lets pray hard.

Grand pa and grand ma were match made but their love for each other is very strong. I still remember on our ROM, Grand pa were wiping Grandma's sweat. When Grand Pa is in hospital, Grand Ma will cry and hold his hands tight and vice versa. They have been together for more then 60 years. This morning, I can see sadness in Grand pa's eyes. It hurt us a lot. Though i only join this family for 3.5 years, i really feel for both of them. The love and passion they have for each other every after so many years. I don't see this kind of love in our generation anymore. To think we choose our partners ourselves yet our love is not as strong as theirs.

I really pray hard that granny is able to make it this time round.

Some updates about Ryann.
He is so sticky to me today. Refuse to let anyone carry accept for me. Not even Daddy lor. Phew.. my bones are breaking but i am still happy. I cant even go toilet because he will start crying when i pass him to hubby. The sight of me will make him get all excited. So cute and I am so happy.

19th Nov Ryann only like the Gingerbread man book

Today we went home early so that we can spent a bit of time reading the new gigantic book. When i gave Ryann a choice of the gingerbread man or the little red riding hood, he will always choose the gingerbread man still. And when we gave him the new book instead, he started crying. BTH.



Then he started flipping like he really know how to read the book. When i said one of the phrase in the story book:"Let me out! Let me out!" He will knock on the book like gingerbread man knocking on the oven door. That was exactly what i did when ever i read to him.



Then i said something like:"Stop gingerbread man stop" He will show me the stop hand signal like what i always do whenever i read to him. I am so glad he is absorbing all those things i did. Hopefully he will accept the new books soon and learn more stuff.

18th Nov Popular Book Fest Damage

Today I went to Popular bookfest at Suntec. Damage is $130.

Brought quite a number of books to add in Ryann's little library. When i show him those books i brought for him, he don't even want to take a look at it. He went on to play with his toys. Bth. Hopefully he will not be those beh tak Cek (Don't want to study) kind.

Quite a number of good buys. In fact i still procrastinating if i want to go there again.

Ryann is so cute today. When i arrive at mum's place, he was still having his porridge. He took a real long time to eat because he need to chew. With only 2 teeth, that didn't help him much. He was also pretty much distracted by Rhys as well, I guess he can't wait to go down to play with Rhys and Xian Qin. I have to sing songs to him to entertain him. When i taught him 'no more', instead of doing the hand signal, he looked into his bowl to see if there is still porridge inside. So cute. So this i conclude that he knows what does 'no more' means.

He love walking to the rooms on his own and play peek a boo with us. He will laugh so loudly when we happen to 'catch' him. He also recently learn to press the button of the sound book.

Ryann and Rhys were playing together and i caught what Ryann was doing on video. I also don't know why he does that. Keep hitting his own head. So cute. Kids are just happy with simple pleasures. The video file size too big, will upload in facebook soon. This is the picture of them.

While playing with the grand piano, Ryann started dancing. But when he saw me taking out my camera, he stopped. This little guy is camera shy like his daddy. Today i heard him call Ah Ma again. But this time round is calling my mum. Loud and clear but only once. Hopefully, everyday i will receive some little surprise from him.

17th Nov Ryann is coughing again

Due to the weather change, Ryann caught the virus. This time round block nose and cough. More or less pretty similar from before.

Whenever Ryann is not well, he will always find me for comfort only. Thus i will often get disturb nights. Some time i will just knock out and hubby will take over.Poor Ryann have dark eye ring liao.

Brought him to Doc Tan again. Went there at 9.30am but Doc Tan not there yet. She went to the hospital. Thus the queue was pretty long. We waited for more then a hour.

Doc Tan said Ryann's situation is more or less the same as before but not as serious as the first time he was on neb. She further explained to me that it is very likely to be related to genetics reasons because both hubby and I had allergies. And Hubby had similar problems as Ryann - Cough and flu very often. Since young we know that Ryann is suffering from atopic allergies.

Allergens, or allergy-causing substances, can be airborne substances (e.g., pollens, dust, smoke), infectious agents (bacteria, fungi, parasites), foods (eg. strawberries, chocolate, eggs), contactants (poison ivy, chemicals, dyes), or physical agents (light, heat, cold). Allergens can affect the respiratory system.

The only way we can try to prevent it from happening is to take good care of Ryann's diet and the staying environment. Make sure it is free from dust and smoke. Watch his food etc.

I was still joking with her about reporting to her clinic every month. I was telling her that i breast feed Ryann for so long yet he still fall sick every month. Really wonder if my breast milk are effective or not. Doc Tan said maybe if i don't breast feed, Ryann might be sick every 2 weeks. =P That make me really tempted to continue breast feeding. But i already cut my pumping session and supply already. Don't think i would be able to regain the supply back again.

Share with her my opinions about Ryann's immunity and on whether is it necessary for him to take supplements or vitamins at this age. Doc Tan's opinion is some what similar to mine. That is as long as Ryann have good sleep, balance diet, nutrition values all taken care of, is eating well and developing well, there is no need for supplements. Unless Ryann is a fussy eater and reject some of the important food in the food pyramid then they is a need for multivitamins.

Currently what is lacking in Ryann's diet is just fruits. Ryann don't really like fruits. Partially also because he only have 2 teeth thus we need to mash them up. I will try to continue to reinforce fruits in his diet if not might need to intro Vit C already.

I also asked her about Ryann's teething issues. Ryann only have 2 teeth. The upper ones have yet to surface but however i can see some white lines on top not on the front tooth but the side instead. Doc Tan said it is a little unusual but still too early to tell. So ask me to monitor. Was thinking of asking Hui Xian (Sister in law) since she is a dentist.

I guess for this coming Christmas, like what corrine sing:"All i want for christmas is my 2 front teeth"

p/s: He lost weight - 10.6kg =(

16th Nov My parenting style and believes

Today we went to compass point to collect my loots from spree. At the same time i got to go to metro to help sis buy her crocs shoe as i have 20% voucher for my birthday month. Unfortunately, there isn't a size for her. Just as i turn around, i couldn't find Ryann. He was walking around the mall with hubby just now. No signs of Ryann along the walkway. As i was looking for them, i spotted both of them on the escalator! Ryann took the escalator for his first time standing and not being carried. Hubby said Ryann was not scared at all and was walking towards the escalator on his own. We went a number of places to look for Ryann's shoe too but we couldn't find any that was suitable.



By the time we reached home, it was already long pass his nap time and he was hungry and sleepy. Fed him milk first then let him sleep. He didn't sleep well with his blocked nose. Just 2 hours. Cook mee sua for him but he only had half. No appetite. Could be due to his sore throat too.



We left the house early to causeway point in search for his shoe. Brought Hubby a pair of Doc Martens and help sis with her crocs. We still couldn't find any shoe for Ryann.



Went to Grand Ma house for Buffet dinner. Fed Ryann with porridge and he finished them all. Must be hungry. Hubby's cousin was there with her 11 months old son too. Her baby is so adorable with big eyes, look really like daddy. Then that uncle commented again that her baby not even 1 year old already eat all anything already, yours 14 months already still cannot eat, so ke lian. That really pissed me off man. I told him straight at his face in front of all the elders that i stand firmly on my believes. No outside food - oily, high in sugar, high in sodium or seasoned food for Ryann until 18 months. Then he still go on saying Ryann so poor thing. Which pulled my trigger and i started telling him off by saying Ryann didn't cry or complain that he is not being fed well and since he never eat before, how would he know about all those adult food?

I seriously hate it when he every time mention about letting Ryann eat outside food. Don't he understand the fact that outside food is full of oil, salt and high in sugar content that is UNHEALTHY for the child. Don't he understand that Ryann have an allergic back ground which can be easily triggered by food? Don't he understand that RYANN'S DOC SAY NO OUTSIDE FOOD UNTIL 18 MONTHS! I am seriously pissed off. 1 more time he going to step on my 'tail', i am going to give him a piece of my mind.

My believes are back up by medical advices and nutritional facts. I didn't study nutrition for nothing. The earlier you intro oily, sugary or salty food to a baby, the possibility of your child's diet to be filled with those food would be much higher. This can easily lead to childhood obesity and hyper activeness. To encourage our little one to appreciate and accept natural flavours, i do not add seasoning while preparing their food or drinks.

Adults' taste buds and children's taste bud are certainly different. What we may taste like tasteless may be tasty for a child already. As we tried seasoned food before, our taste bud will be used to the food taste be it salty or sweet or spicy, thus we should never compare our taste with theirs. Just for example, I don't take spicy food as i am allergic to a certain type of spice. My mum said it is not spicy at all. But to me it is already very spicy because my taste palate is not used to such stimulation. For my mum, she is already used to eating spices, thus it seems nothing to her.

I do not mean that their parenting style are wrong, but i do expect a little respect that i do have my own parenting style to handle my own child. And he should not say Ryann is so poor thing in front of him as it may cause adverse effects on a child's psychological aspects.

Regardless of what kind of parenting style different people adapts, i believe no parents would want to cause any harm to their child. Thus we should respect each others believes and no expecting people to change to suit your believes. I hope one day he get my message across.
STOP ASKING ME TO FEED RYANN WITH OUTSIDE FOOD AND SAY RYANN IS SO KE LIAN IN FRONT OF HIM!

15th Nov Depression

Today was a busy day for me. My schedule are filled with clients' appointment. This afternoon, I met up with Rela who was also a depression patient. She was still procrastinating whether to sign up with Amore or some other clubs. She was previously member of Slender Shapes which closed down early last month due to financial issues. This was the 2nd time i spoke to her.

During our 2 hour long conversation, I can feel her stress and anxiety. She suffered from low self esteem and she is desperately looking into losing weight. She mentioned that her husband is a very fit person but did not agree for her to go to a fitness centre for exercise. Due to his objection, Rela have to use her own money to pay for the course fees which she definitely have problems paying for.

What hit me hard was during the conversation, at times she can get teary or even angry with herself. She said things like: "i cant even see my legs because i am so fat" "My mind cannot accept a 'NO' answer to food. All the problem lies with my head but i just cant control it." I can feel her anxiety and fear with her words. She did not get much support from her husband. She knows what was the root of the problem but she just cant control herself. This could be one reason for her to hate herself.

I have seen so many cases of depression and i believe the numbers are rising. Most of these depression start from home or work. Broken families, stress, lack of concern and understanding are mostly root of the problems. A friend of mine cut her wrist so many times till you cant see her actual skin right from her wrist to her intersection of her arm near her elbow.

Due to the stress and our busy schedule, have we all forgotten to love? Have we all forgotten to show care and concern to our loved ones. Is it really hard to ask your loved ones "How was your day today?" Have we forgotten our wedding vows? Have we forgotten how to accept people as who he/she is? Have we forgotten to forgive too?

Life is short. Dwell in the joy and happiness. Problems and setbacks encountered in life are not there to stay or to pull you down. It all happens to make you a stronger man/woman.

I have been an avid reader of Shin's cancer blog, Late Molly Lee's blog and Fleur's cancer blog. What they taught me was the 'never give up spirit'. one of them wrote that since she only have very little time left and she only had 2 choices. One is to cry and get upset over everything, start asking God Why me? and waste away all the remaining time with nothing changed, still having cancer. Two is to brace up and spent all the remaining time fruitfully and give all her love to her loved ones and enjoy all her quality time. Of cos she choose the 2nd option.

In life, we must always stay positive. Easier said then done, but for the sake of our loved ones, family, our kids, we must all be wonder woman.

14th Nov Books for Ryann

Brought another 2 books from the MPH book fair for Ryann but he didn't really like them. Will try again some other time.

Today tried to read him some other books instead of the Ginger bread man story. First i took the sesame street series board book and read him a good night rhyme. I read aloud for the first time, he got interested with what i was reading and came to me. Thus i read the rhyme for the 2nd time. 1 thing about Ryann is he like to hold the book himself but before i could even finish reading that page, he would have flipped the pages already. He love flipping the pages.

After reading the rhyme for the 2nd time, I have decided to put the book back and when i said no more and took the book away from him, he started crying. Not the big cry kind but more like those 'sai nai' kind of crying. So funny. I took another book to distract him. It was the <123>. As i read along the pages, Ryann started snatching the book away from me and flipping the pages again. I will tell him that I have yet to finish reading that page so we cant turn the pages yet but i doubt he understands as he was still flipping away.

13th Nov Was Ryann pointing at Gingerbread man?

I had a really tired and long day at work today. Meetings, training and serving customers non-stop. By the time i left office, it was almost 8pm. Fully exhausted but the moment i reach home and see Ryann, all tiredness will automatically be gone.

Nowadays, Ryann would walk around non-stop. He will walk to the TV console, to the sofa then walk to the back of the living room after which the rooms then walk back.His favourite room is Tri's room. He will sort of play hide and seek there. He will stand near the door and attempt to peep outside. If we caught him doing that, he will laugh out loud. Most likely he is playing with us. So cute.

After his last feed, I realize that he is still pretty much alert thus i decided to read him a book. I took the Gigantic Gingerbread man book and a Farm book. I asked him which one do you want Mummy to read? He smiled and walked towards the gingerbread man book. And when i ask him which one is the gingerbread man? I thought i saw him pointing to the book. It was really fast. But i am very sure his index finger was pointing up. Hopefully he is really learning how to point.

I have only 1 more month to teach Ryann to start speaking up. Hopefully he will start talking too.

12th Nov Ryann is 14 months old today!

This video was taken at Plaza Singapura food court as written yesterday.


Ryann is 14 months old today. Time flies. He is a big boy now. This was taken today and the other picture was taken 13 months ago when he turn 1 month. See how much he have grown.

Just shaved his hair when he turn 1 month. He quietly allow the hair stylist to shave his hair then. But now... he will scream and cry his head off when we bring him for a hair cut. He will also sweep away our hands.

Ryann is super hyper active. He is like a Energizer Baby. Never stop. this video recorded down how he give me something when asked to do so. After which he stand on his own unsupported and lastly walk really fast. Video taken using my lousy phone. I guess it is time for me to bring my camera every day so that i can catch Ryann's little actions readily.

Ryann still cannot do quite a number of things which his peers could do. But i have learned to rejoice at the things that he could do rather then hanging on to things that he have yet learn to do. As long as he is still progressing within the normal range.

Some of the things that he can do:

1. respond to Lu Lu the spider song.
2. Press the button to activate the Tomato Giggling Elmo.
3. Lift up his leg when wearing his pants.
4. Go to his Ride on and press the music button when asked.
5. Give us things when we ask for it.
6. Sit down and finish reading the ginger bread man
7. Show Sasha wash hands action
8. Knows where is the ceiling. (after GUG class)
9. Knows how to put Thomas the train back to its usual location.
10. Off the TV.

And many more.... I hope there would be more to come that involves with talking and expressing himself.

11th Nov Shake head = Not Good?

Brought Ryann to Plaza Singapura today for a walk. Singapore is such a boring place. No where interesting to bring Ryann. We walked round and round but found nothing interesting. Went to food court to eat. Ryann flashes his 'killer smile' to one of the cleaner auntie. She keep coming back to our table to play with Ryann.

Whenever i asked Ryann:"Good Good how?" He will always shake his head. I dunno why. Caught it on video. Will upload tomorrow after converting the file.

10th Nov Ryann's version of flying kiss

Ryann's version of flying kiss is unique and special. Because instead of having his hand on his lips before flying out,he will put his hands over my mouth instead. We have tried a couple of times and he just refuse to put his hands on his own lips. So cute.

Ryann was able to stand up on his own without support today. Finally was able to see it with my own eyes but didnt get a chance to video it down. Will try again tomorrow.

Some pictures we took yesterday at FIL's birthday dinner.

9th Nov Grandpa birthday

Today is my FIL's birthday celebration. We went to River view hotel for a Chinese buffet dinner.

Food was acceptable but not very fantastic.

Ryann was very cranky during the dinner because he doesn't want to sit down. He wanted to come down and walk. Once out of the high chair, he started walking every where around the table and restaurant. Phew, very tired chasing after him but it was fun seeing him walking around.

Ryann was clapping happily during the birthday song. I could see the happiness in my FIL's eyes. I hope they can meet more often. I know he love Ryann alot but just that he doesn't express his feelings out openly. This year was a different year for him. This year Ryann is able to clap for him. The only thing i dun like about meeting up with them is always on different parenting style. Always have the intention to feed him adult food. Why so urgent? The only benefit i can see is the convenience we adults experience when we bring them out. Other then that, why so urgent?

Ryann was too tired by the end of the day. He fell asleep on our way home.

My one and only off day is over! Tomorrow is Monday again. =(

8th Nov Ryann is able to stand up on his own without support

Ryann was able to stand up on his own without support this afternoon but sad to say, i didn't get to see it. He is improving and hopefully will get better as days goes by.

Ryann seems to be better already. Not so much of watery stools these few days. Finally those puking and watery stools days are coming to an end! Yippee...

Hopefully by next week i can take the Prevnar jab for Ryann. $170. Super expensive lor! Haiz.

6th Nov Mummy's lunar birthday gift from Ryann

Today is my lunar birthday and Ryann gave me a birthday pressie. That is to dance for me to see. So funny. he will even shake his shoulders during the dance. I must really find a chance to get it on video. That definitely ease off all my tiredness.

This birthday, i have come to realize many life values.
From the day a woman gave birth to her child, she no longer celebrates her own birthday as nothing matters more then the day her child was born. I totally agree as look at the effort i put in for Ryann's birthday party, you will know i definitely love Ryann more then i love myself.

Being a mother is never easy. We got to worry about almost everything about our babies. Their development in terms of motor skills or communication skills and many other factors. Woman are just naturally thinkers. We think a lot but sometimes a bit too much. Woman will do research to find out more about everything from baby care, babies health, babies development milestone, how to handle your child terrible 2s and many more. All mothers would want the best for their children. And naturally we build this strong image and character within us so that we can protect our child with all means and nothing matters more then our little sweet heart.I believe many mummies would agree with that. This source of energy comes from unlimited love.

Love is amazing. You cant see it but you can see how it changes a woman - a mother.

5th Nov Happy birthday Mummy~Me!

The last thing a person would want to do on her own birthday is to do things that might spoil her mood for the rest of the day. I did just that. I booked for my final theory test today. I was already on my driving lessons almost 1 and a half year ago but due to pregnancy, i couldn't continue and thus had to retake again as my final theory is only valid for 2 years. Thank God for His blessings. I managed to pass the final theory again.


Hubby wanted to bring me to orchard road today. What a change. I thought he was always against me buying my luxury bags. But i decided to wait instead. Time is bad now. I can do without the bag. We went to parkway parade to walk around instead. Hubby couldn't find any gift for me as i didn't want anything. Initially wanted to buy jewellery for me but i didn't want. Nowadays to prevent scratching Ryann, i hardly wear any rings other then our wedding bands.


But we brought 2 shorts for Ryann and a thermal jar which was on sale. Nothing for Mummy but it was ok.


As years goes by, birthday doesn't hold much meanings to me anymore. Just a date, nothing great about it. I am not abit excited about it coming nor am i sad that the day just ended like a blink of an eye. But i am certainly glad that many of my friends remembered me on this day.


I still remember last year this time, Ryann was so tiny and we celebrated our open house with our family members at my current place and they surprised me with a cake. This year no cake no celebrations but i am more then contented with Hubby and Ryann by my side.


Went to Xiao Hong Lou (Red house) for dinner. Hubby felt like having crab for dinner thus we went to our favourite restaurant that serve delicious crab. He ordered so much food, we were so full lor.
Because of my manicured nails, Hubby had to help me with the prawn and crab. Haha. I am being served like a queen. =p









Food was really nice.
Tomorrow i am going to have my D24 durian cake. Sis brought me a cake from my favourite EMicakes. Yummy!

4th Nov Bonding day with Ryann

Took leave for today and tomorrow to take good care of Ryann and also to 'enjoy' being 1 year older. =p

Brought Ryann to Vivo again today as hubby wanted to buy his Crocs shoe and had dinner at Dian Xiao Er. Their food is nice and hubby like it a lot. Unfortunately, the disaster only started after dinner. Ryann vomited all his porridge. Partly also because i couldn't get him to stop putting his fingers in his mouth and also his gastric flu. Luckily we brought extra clothes to change him. My heart hurts to see him sick. I know he is very hungry but yet i didn't dare to feed him more in fear that he might just puke again. Fed him half a bowl more and decided to feed him milk instead. He wobbled every thing up and fell asleep after a while.

Went to Toys R us and brought a Thomas the train toy and V-smile cartridge for Ryann. Hubby was asking me is there any thing i want and I thought for a while. I guess all i wanted is Ryann to get well soon.

Some pictures of Ryann during this trip.

3rd Nov What a week we had.

What a week we had.....

First of all, Rhys got admitted to hospital for stomach flu. Auntie Jannie went to visit him with Rebecca, Hazel and Kimberly. After being discharge from hospital, sis and mum started feeling unwell and at the same time, Auntie Jannie, hazel and Kimberly got the stomach flu virus too. All 3 of them were vomiting and having diarrhoea at the same time too. Mum had diarrhoea for a few days.
On Thursday, Ryann start to vomit already. He vomited for 5 times on that day. And I couldn't find a PD around my area. Kidslink and Kids clinic didn't have night clinic on Thursday. I went to a GP instead and was luckily seen by Dr Wong Tien Hua (The handsome and young doctor downstairs =p). Surprisingly, Ryann did not struggle at all when Dr Wong check his temperature and he allowed him to check his stomach. This was totally unexpected because he is usually not co-operative with the doctors. Was given medicine for the stomach wind and vomiting. And was given the medicine to help clear the virus out of his body. Till now he is still not well yet.

Soon, Dad vomited too and started to have lots of wind in his tummy. Being a stroke patient, we have to be even careful with what he eat and hopefully he doesn't get serious diarrhoea problem as we are afraid he might get dehydrated. He is not allowed to drink too much water in fear that water might goes into his lungs.

I started having lots of wind in my tummy on Saturday night and felt really tired. On Sunday, I woke up with body aches and a bad tummy ache. Was running a temperature then and i was practically sleeping all the way through the day. Only woke up for milk pumping and i didn't even ate anything at all. Tri vomited that night too. Lucky after taking the medicine, both of us felt alot better.

Phew, this virus is moving strong and i guess our bodies are just fighting it. I just pray that this stomach flu saga is going to be over soon and God will grant our family with good health.

29th Oct Ryann only interested in the gigantic book

Ryann only have interest with the gigantic book.

Yesterday i tried to read the normal A4 size story book, he was only interested for 2 pages and soon he wander off to play with other toys.

Today i showed him the gingerbread man book, and he started smiling thus i read that to him instead and he stayed still throughout the story.

Today, while Rhys was watching the vcd, Ryann went to hit on the vcd player and that caused the player to malfunction. The tv went noisy and the vcd just stopped. Rhys got frightened by Ryann's action and started crying. Naughty Ryann still act as if nothing happen. Sis told him 'No' but he simply ignore her lor. He only scare of BIL cos when BIL hold him up, he started kicking in the air. So funny. Dunno want to be angry or laugh at him.

28th Oct Ryann walks in shopping mall

Today is the first time we allow Ryann to walk in a shopping mall. This 'ya ya' little boy don't want us to hold his hands. He swept our hands away and started walking towards the escalator! Naughty boy!

Went to people's park to buy some daily necessity such as shampoo, hubby's gel and Ryann's shower gel. Decided not to continue using California baby body wash because it it really expensive. Change back to QV wash for him since it is suitable for him too. ocean is selling at $19 but at guardian is selling at $25 at least! Great buy!

Started the 5 minute method of suggestions which i previously consulted Samantha. I think i disturb Ryann at sleep cos he keep tossing and turning when i talk to him. He must be thinking that mummy is so annoying, disturb him when he sleep. I must think of what to say and record it down. So many things i hope he will not do. is 5 minutes enough? =p

27th Oct More Videos of Ryann: scare of TMX Elmo

Last time Ryann is not scare of TMX Elmo. In fact he was quite amused by it. Suddenly today, we realize that he is running away from TMX Elmo. But he is not scare of his other Elmo plush toy. So funny.






Ryann knows how to press the nose of Elmo to activate the Elmo tomato toy.

26th Oct GUG Trial class

NO cameras allowed so we couldnt take pictures in the class.

They check the hands and legs before letting the kids go in but frankly speaking, they didnt disinfect ryann's hands because he simply refuse to let them touch his hands.

Classroom setup:

Toys and balls on the floor for free play warm up. They then got the kids to put back the toys themselves. Ryann manage to put back a ball but bad aiming skills, the ball was outside the box.

When the class starts, they start to sing a song to get the kids sitting on the mat. During the singing part, Ryann enjoyed it alot. Clapping his hands along and smiling. They introduced the number 9 by counting the number of babies in the class and 9 stars were drawn on the board. Through out the play time, they encourage the babies to say bye bye to the toys.

They did quite a few songs which Ryann participate by clapping and hiting the mat. Some familiar songs we did during the class was like wheels on the bus, twinkle twinkle little star, itcy wincy spider, old macdonald had a farm.

During the class, they introduced Zoophonics. Today's letter is Q. They had this Quail puppet and this Quail puppet went round to kiss every baby on their cheeks. Then they introduced 3 words. Quiet, Quack and Queen.

Quiet - They had this book about Quiet and loud but Ryann wasn't paying any attention on the teacher. He was practically 'running' about the room.

Quack - They had this rubber duckie and the old macdonald song to attract Ryann's attention. They went round drawing this duck on every babies hand but ryann just refuse. Thank God for that as they use White board marker and some babies were even licking on it.

Queen - just some simple questions but Ryann was not listening. Neither am I.

Then we went round to the 'zoo' but singing the Zoo phonics song. Which was quite interesting.

~~~~Water break time ~~~~

Then the parachute came in. The parachute activity is for them to train on their self confidence. Ryann did very well for that segment. He was not scared, he did not cry and most of all he was smiling, The parachute activity requires us to put our babies at the centre of the parachute and mummies will hold the side and start turning round and round. Some babies started crying. After that, we tried to get the babies involved by pulling the side up and down. They started introducing a new song to teach up, down, under, fast and slow. Overall Ryann enjoyed this part.

Then come talking time. Ryann cannot sit still during the talking time. He only enjoys the singing part.We made mini maracas with Small aluminium foil balls.

After which We move on to the music room for more songs and exercise for the mummies. We sang songs of the park and we are suppose to swing them up and down like on the swing. I think Ryann enjoyed himself. Then we sang wheels on the bus. My favourite segment is the bubbles and the stars, They blow bubbles and Ryann was so happy to be able to touch them. Then they gave us each 1 touch light and they off the lights. Ryann's enjoyed them too. After everything we have to sing the goodbye song and that's the end of the class.

Overall, they were pretty organized but i think the teachers didn't control the class very well. As half way through quite messy. Ryann like the music part only. I only don't like the white board arker idea.

Ryann was so hungry after the class that he finishes his milk and he fell asleep on the way back.

I am glad he enjoyed the class.