29th Oct Ryann only interested in the gigantic book

Ryann only have interest with the gigantic book.

Yesterday i tried to read the normal A4 size story book, he was only interested for 2 pages and soon he wander off to play with other toys.

Today i showed him the gingerbread man book, and he started smiling thus i read that to him instead and he stayed still throughout the story.

Today, while Rhys was watching the vcd, Ryann went to hit on the vcd player and that caused the player to malfunction. The tv went noisy and the vcd just stopped. Rhys got frightened by Ryann's action and started crying. Naughty Ryann still act as if nothing happen. Sis told him 'No' but he simply ignore her lor. He only scare of BIL cos when BIL hold him up, he started kicking in the air. So funny. Dunno want to be angry or laugh at him.

28th Oct Ryann walks in shopping mall

Today is the first time we allow Ryann to walk in a shopping mall. This 'ya ya' little boy don't want us to hold his hands. He swept our hands away and started walking towards the escalator! Naughty boy!

Went to people's park to buy some daily necessity such as shampoo, hubby's gel and Ryann's shower gel. Decided not to continue using California baby body wash because it it really expensive. Change back to QV wash for him since it is suitable for him too. ocean is selling at $19 but at guardian is selling at $25 at least! Great buy!

Started the 5 minute method of suggestions which i previously consulted Samantha. I think i disturb Ryann at sleep cos he keep tossing and turning when i talk to him. He must be thinking that mummy is so annoying, disturb him when he sleep. I must think of what to say and record it down. So many things i hope he will not do. is 5 minutes enough? =p

27th Oct More Videos of Ryann: scare of TMX Elmo

Last time Ryann is not scare of TMX Elmo. In fact he was quite amused by it. Suddenly today, we realize that he is running away from TMX Elmo. But he is not scare of his other Elmo plush toy. So funny.






Ryann knows how to press the nose of Elmo to activate the Elmo tomato toy.

26th Oct GUG Trial class

NO cameras allowed so we couldnt take pictures in the class.

They check the hands and legs before letting the kids go in but frankly speaking, they didnt disinfect ryann's hands because he simply refuse to let them touch his hands.

Classroom setup:

Toys and balls on the floor for free play warm up. They then got the kids to put back the toys themselves. Ryann manage to put back a ball but bad aiming skills, the ball was outside the box.

When the class starts, they start to sing a song to get the kids sitting on the mat. During the singing part, Ryann enjoyed it alot. Clapping his hands along and smiling. They introduced the number 9 by counting the number of babies in the class and 9 stars were drawn on the board. Through out the play time, they encourage the babies to say bye bye to the toys.

They did quite a few songs which Ryann participate by clapping and hiting the mat. Some familiar songs we did during the class was like wheels on the bus, twinkle twinkle little star, itcy wincy spider, old macdonald had a farm.

During the class, they introduced Zoophonics. Today's letter is Q. They had this Quail puppet and this Quail puppet went round to kiss every baby on their cheeks. Then they introduced 3 words. Quiet, Quack and Queen.

Quiet - They had this book about Quiet and loud but Ryann wasn't paying any attention on the teacher. He was practically 'running' about the room.

Quack - They had this rubber duckie and the old macdonald song to attract Ryann's attention. They went round drawing this duck on every babies hand but ryann just refuse. Thank God for that as they use White board marker and some babies were even licking on it.

Queen - just some simple questions but Ryann was not listening. Neither am I.

Then we went round to the 'zoo' but singing the Zoo phonics song. Which was quite interesting.

~~~~Water break time ~~~~

Then the parachute came in. The parachute activity is for them to train on their self confidence. Ryann did very well for that segment. He was not scared, he did not cry and most of all he was smiling, The parachute activity requires us to put our babies at the centre of the parachute and mummies will hold the side and start turning round and round. Some babies started crying. After that, we tried to get the babies involved by pulling the side up and down. They started introducing a new song to teach up, down, under, fast and slow. Overall Ryann enjoyed this part.

Then come talking time. Ryann cannot sit still during the talking time. He only enjoys the singing part.We made mini maracas with Small aluminium foil balls.

After which We move on to the music room for more songs and exercise for the mummies. We sang songs of the park and we are suppose to swing them up and down like on the swing. I think Ryann enjoyed himself. Then we sang wheels on the bus. My favourite segment is the bubbles and the stars, They blow bubbles and Ryann was so happy to be able to touch them. Then they gave us each 1 touch light and they off the lights. Ryann's enjoyed them too. After everything we have to sing the goodbye song and that's the end of the class.

Overall, they were pretty organized but i think the teachers didn't control the class very well. As half way through quite messy. Ryann like the music part only. I only don't like the white board arker idea.

Ryann was so hungry after the class that he finishes his milk and he fell asleep on the way back.

I am glad he enjoyed the class.

25th Oct Ryann's latest update

Ryann was getting ready to sleep on his bed and suddenly something caught his eye and he started staring at it. What was it? Make a guess? It was his pacifier! We forgot to keep his pacifier which was hanging on top of his sarong. Ryann kept staring at it but he is such a good boy, he didn't cry at all. Ryann is officially pacifier free so he don't need them anymore! =p

We brought the Elmo giggling tomato toy for Ryann. The Elmo tomato will start to giggle and vibrate when we press its nose. Amazingly after doing a few times, Ryann was able to press Elmo's nose and make it giggle. Clever boy! Wasn't able to get it on video will sure do that the next time.

Ryann loves Sesame street VCDs, especially those with Elmo. We had this Elmo's potty time VCD at mum's place. One of the highlights of this VCD is washing hands. Sasha is watching her hands. Watch how Ryann raise his hands up exactly like Sasha when the screen shows Sasha's hands. There is this screen shot of Sasha's hands too. So cute. And look at how attentive he was during the show. He will keep his eye glued to the TV through out the video.

I tried one more time and he did just the same thing again.

At the end of the show, the sesame street character will sing the finale song. Ryann will get real excited about the song and will start clapping along.

We also tried to teach him how to put back the toys in the bag but this naughty boy cant make up his mind to keep or not to keep.

Ryann was able to sit with me to read the gigantic book again! So happy. Think God is answering my prayers. Forgot to add... Ryann is standing at 76.5cm (So short lor) but weigh 11kg!

24th Oct Ryann went to the clinic

Today brought Ryann to the clinic to get medicine just in case his running nose and cough worsen over the weekend. Actually he is alot better already but suddenly at the clinic he started coughing again. Maybe also because of air con environment. So scare he need to be on neb again. Luckily Doc Tan said not so bad but still must monitor. Hopefully he gets well over the weekend to be able to go for the GuG Trial class. During the day, he is ok but the situation worsen at night.



Ryann and Rhys sat on the ride in front of Doc Tan's clinic. Took a pic of both of them. Not a nice one as both of them are so so active, me and mum couldn't cope handling both of them.



Doc Tan said not to worry about Ryann's speech as he have until 18 months to improve on his speech. As for pointing, Doc advice that we continue to point and show him so that he will learn from there. i have a number of questions but because the clinic was so crowded, Doc Tan got to speed up. I will most likely chose a afternoon slot for his prevnar jab so that i can ask more questions.



Ryann managed to sit and read with me and hubby just now. It is the Gingerbread man gigantic book which i brought from popular bookstore. Sat him on my lap and i got him to flip the first page. Each page only have got few sentences so it is pretty easy to read through. Of cos Ryann simply cant wait, wanting to flip the pages before i could finish. But i manage to add in more actions and sounds to make it more interesting such as 'Cow' i will add the sound of Moo Moo and 'Stop gingerbread man' i will add in the stop action and get him to do it too. Half way through, Ryann got abit restless and wanted to move away but he still came back to the story after a while. Hopefully it will work every day. If it works, i will go buy other series of the gigantic book.

23rd Oct Ryann had a hair cut

Came home today and realize that Ryann's hair became shorter. That's when i realize that Tri cut his hair. Was a little bit unhappy that she didn't seek my advice and just proceed with cutting. And it is not like it was very nicely done. I could have brought Ryann to the baby hair salon. But still i didn't say much since there is nothing i can do about it.

I have to say Tri still did a good job at home. She took the initiative to stop giving the pacifier. She even tried not to give smelly pillow to him during sleep.She also started toilet training him. Bringing him to the toilet every hour.
The only thing about her is, she make decision without asking me. I know she has good intention and thus did not make a big fuss about it. I felt she really treat Ryann like her son.


I hope Ryann is able to quit all these habits soon. One very important habit to quit is fingers inside the mouth. Have tried to tell him not to do that but he will still do it.



Today, Hubby told me that Ryann's milk in the fridge is getting lesser. already touching on the extras. Suddenly i felt abit sad that i am stopping breast feeding soon. I throw away 21 packets of frozen milk just now. Heart pain. I didn't expect myself to be able to breast feed for so long. i only wanted to breast feed for 6 months actually, now is already 13 months. I have to learn to let go of this "breast feeding addiction" Must start thinking how to reward myself.

Just to share some pictures i took with my phone. Just got it uploaded.

so many expression when watching vcd.

Handsome boy at Mark's wedding.

First time siting in the trolley

This is the last picture we took with him eating the pacifier. He is officially free from pacifier for 3 days!!!! Yippee!

Ryann is a big boy now and mummy loves you so so much.

22nd Oct Day 2 without pacifier

Yippee. Day 2 WON!!! no pacifier. Today he seems to know that he will not be given the pacifier anymore, he fell asleep pretty fast. Maybe because of the medicine too. We must be persistent in not giving him the pacifier even when he is outside making noise. Hopefully i will be able to tahan him on sunday without pacifier.

Caught Ryann on video on how he walk today. He could walk pretty well already but still will fall at times. This was taken after medicine and he is feeling a bit blur already but still he managed to walk a longer distance then usual.

Ryann is still having block nose but his cough only got abit worse at night. Most likely will monitor for another day, if still no progress then i will bring him to Doc Tan on Friday. Maybe at the same time we can do a assessment and book for prevnar jab appointment. Some mummies told me that this jab will cause fever. I cross my fingers on that. Hopefully Ryann will not.

21st Oct Day 1 without Pacifier

Tri tried not to give Ryann pacifier for the last 2 days during the afternoon. So far is okay. Maybe it is also due to the medicine that distracted him. Today is the first day we are trying not to give pacifier for the whole day including the night. At first Ryann seems like waiting for something. Eyes were much more awake then usual. He will occasionally attempt to come near us as though he is waiting for us to give him his pacifier. Soon he got tired and fell asleep.

DAY 1 WON!!! Yippee!

Took a day off today and did spring cleaning for my store room and Ryann's birthday gift.

Finally fixed up the racks

Tried on some of my pre- preggy clothes. Manage to fit into some but still need to lose more to go back to my pre preggy size.
I am going to start exercising regularly. Once is not enough. Hopefully i can use lunch time to go for a fast run. My aim is at least 3 times a week. Need to watch my diet too. Still considering whether to stop breast feeding totally or continue on.

Pack up Ryann's walker, 2 bouncer, play gym and his birthday pressies. Going to keep the cot soon as well since i am going to buy a new 4 tier chest drawer for Ryann's clothes etc. Found the pack of vacuum storage bags and thus tried it using the cot mosquito net. I simply love it so much. Save space and keep the things inside clean. Should have brought more. Thank God for this creation.

Before with the huge mosquito net inside the bag.

Amazingly flat and saving of space. I am loving it.

Things to do:

1. Maths Flashcards - date line - mid Nov
2. decide on GUG or Trio - End of Oct
3. Prevnar Jab before class start.
4. Get my exercise schedule up. - Next week
5. Contact shortlisted playgroup. - mid Nov

More to go........

20th Oct New books for Ryann but he is not interested

Brought new books for Ryann so that i can try to introduce reading to him again. Brought this 3 minute nursery rhyme book, the wheels on the bus book and a gigantic big book : The gingerbread man. Was hoping the big book will catch his attention but he wasn't very much interested in them. Will keep trying, hopefully will get his attention soon.

Today is a bad day for me. No words can describe how i feel about my work now. Drain up, tired, demoralized, not motivated, frustrated, unhappy are just not enough to describe me now.
I think i need a break but at this moment of time, i can't. I am lost and i hate to feel this way. I felt that i need directions. I need time, energy and motivation to continue moving on. Not the problem with the company in general but the problem with the people. Not that the work load is too heavy for me to handle but it is the mental stress that i am facing. I felt like i am carrying 100kg of load on my shoulders but yet none of my staff are sharing the load.
As a manager, not only i have to manage the business and operations, i have to be a counsellor to them. I felt that i care for them more then they care for themselves and thus i got more worried. Every day i felt like a mother hen trying to chase after my little chicks not to do this, must eat something, must take care of your health ...... Maybe i think too much. Maybe i should just let go and draw a line between staff and myself. It is going to be tough as they are all like my closest friends. I hope i do not need to be a mother hen anymore. If only they understand how much they mean to me and how important they are in my life. They are not just my staff, my colleagues but they are my friends.