19th Aug Ryann is feeling better

Ryann seems to feel better today. But still coughing and runny nose. Today mood seems to be happier too although this morning his usual smile is not there. So glad that he is feeling better already.

Today went back to work finally, my in tray is practically full and my to do list is full. Rush the assignment for my boss. Only manage to complete 2 assignments today. Boss told me that i cannot off this week end cos i have to be at road show at milenia walk. Boring... My weekend burned again. So last minute, i cant even find staff to work.

Today i got mum to cook green papaya fish soup for me. Drank a big bowl of it. Hopefully my milk supply will come back. Recently due to stress, lack of sleep and tiredness, my milk supply drop tremendously. Taking in to consideration Ryann always waste my milk cos he cannot finish. I always have to pump more for spare. I miss those times whereby i can pump 1.2 litre of milk per day. Stupid fever that time make my supply drop.

Jane just gave birth on Sunday. Little Samuel is only 2.5 if i am not wrong. C section like me cos cervix refuse to open. Haiz...Heard from my sis that Simon is very into breast feeding and he was the one who taught Jane to do it. But Jane have no confidence. Due to Simon's persistence and insensitivity to Jane's feelings, Jane cried. What can man understand about breastfeeding? You can read tonnes of books regarding breastfeeding but you will never understand how it feels. Fancy him to teach what Jane have to do and not taking into consideration that his wife just went through an operation and should not be agitated and being stressed. It is not good for the baby and also the mummy. I recalled those days when i tried to latch directly and i couldn't get it right and i cried too. At that moment of time, i felt so useless as a mother and yet i do not know how to feed my son. Ryann was so tiny then. I couldn't get the right position to feed him then not to say Samuel who is almost 1 kg smaller then Ryann's birth weight. Man got to learn how to be more understanding and sensitive to the wife.

4 months maternity leave, 6 days childcare, 7 days unpaid leave, more bb bonus.... when will i have number 2?