21st July Mattress so expensive

Today was thinking of going to pasar malam and buy a small mattress to block the side of Ryann's bed so that if he ever going to crawl out of his bed over the bed rail again, he will not hit his head.

I ask how much the mattress i got a shock. So poor quality sponge mattress $53 dollars. End up we didnt buy because i felt that i could be able to get a better quality kind at that price too.

Daddy is not doing well recently. Keep asking for water say very hot in the body. Refuse to sleep at night, resulting to Tri and Mum having to sleep in the living room. Daddy was cursing and swearing saying he want to die. Seeing him like that feel so heart pain. If Changi Hospital incident did not happen, maybe he wont be like that. But i guess daddy gave up on himself too. Sad to say, he cant recognise us. He said he dun have wife where got daughter. Haiz... I dunno what will happen if i ever lose him. Should i be happy that at least daddy is not longer in pain and misery or should i be sad that i am losing my dad. I just pray that my dad will be relieve from pain. I hope Ryann will have memory of his grandpa. Ryann love to play with dad's legs as it is just about the height of his walker. Sometimes i very scare dad will kick Ryann, which he will with his the other moving leg. Hopefully not. =p

Tomorrow bring Ryann out again. =p